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The worst that can happen is that I'll cry again.

2011-04-20T23:03:00.007-07:00

So tonight, while reading a selection from Into Thin Air that bespoke of devotion, I looked at Stoli, our cat. I thought about our animals and our love for them, and that jumped into wondering how that would compare to our love for, say, our children. I thought about if we would die for one, like we would for a child. I thought about dogs chewing through doors to save their masters in burning houses. I thought about the extent of family for us and for them, and about how we are all we give them of family. About how we systematically deny animals of their biological family. This, of course, took me back to one of my biggest problems with eating the way I eat--eating dairy and eggs--even if organic and/or local. Even if there isn't physical suffering involved, I can't get away from the fact that it is cruel to split up families. It goes against all that I know of family love. And there's no question that animals find love and comfort in their families. We don't have to search far to see or read the evidence of that fact.

Enter tears. Disappointment that I continue to do something that my whole self rejects violently (albeit rarely, since I choose to ignore it most of the time). After a mini-jag and a text session with a vegan-friendly friend (who toys with it occasionally, as I do), I decided to expect it of myself again--being vegan, or at least, mostly vegan. I instantly feel nostalgic when I think of the few things I bake or think about baking once every six months that don't have an easy vegan adaptation. And then I think how silly that something like that influences me away from what gives me a real sense of joy, a sense of limitless love.

Some of the best lines regarding such silly fears are in the introduction to The Joy of Vegan Baking by Colleen Patrick-Goudreau (the bolded emphasis is my own--some of what speaks to me most):

“I’ve heard people say that eating vegan is ‘limiting’ and ‘restrictive,’ and I couldn’t disagree more. In fact, I find that it’s quite the opposite. Your awareness is expanded. You try foods and cuisines you never even noticed before. The compassion you knew as a child is restored—and fully manifested. But even more than that, I find that living in such a way that we cut ourselves off from the truth, from our truth, is what’s truly limiting. People tend to avoid knowing about how the animals suffer not just because it’s too painful for them but also because they know deep down inside that once they find out this information, they’re going to want to make a change, and it’s change they’re afraid of: afraid of not knowing what it will look like and how it will change their lives. So instead, we choose fear. We create boundaries to our compassion. We choose ignorance over knowledge. We choose complacency over empowerment. To my mind, that’s restrictive, that’s limiting.

Every time we say ‘I don’t want to know,’ we limit our potential for growth, change, and making possible everything we want to be and everything we want this world to be. What could be more limiting than cutting ourselves off from our own compassion, our own values? Quite the contrary, being vegan is about knowing, exploring, evolving, participating, and taking responsibility. Being vegan is about removing barriers and embracing what it means to be human—experiencing sorrow as well as joy. To my mind, that’s expansive. That’s abundance.

It was only when I was willing to know—willing to look—at how I contributed to the suffering of animals that I woke up. When I was a child, I acted compassionately without any thought—as if I didn’t know any better than to respond to those who needed my help. It just came naturally. Now that I’m an adult, I act compassionately with thought, and I only regret that the innocent kindness of a child is valued more than the informed kindness of an adult. Though the process of desensitization was full and complete by the time I was a young adult, I’m grateful it was not irreversible, and I fully embrace what I hope will be my legacy: unabashed, unfettered, unconditional compassion.” –Colleen Patrick Goudreau

This time, I hope I can enjoy lasting conviction instead of the inevitable bout of tears that (eventually) finds me after I've abandoned my vegan intentions. But if I don't, there are worse things than experiencing the same epiphany over and over, I guess. One day my cheeks will hit their salt saturation point, and I'll stop disappointing myself. That day may be today. :)

New and exciting baking challenges! :)

2010-11-03T13:18:00.002-07:00

So yesterday I found out that a blood test suggested I had Celiac's. I've thought before that my body wasn't BFFs with gluten, perhaps, but I've had a negative test for Celiac's in the past and so haven't had the motivation to really embrace a gluten-free diet. It's a big thing to do, you know? But after yesterday, I now have a test-dictated reason to cut out gluten. I could continue eating gluten and get an intestinal biopsy to fully confirm, or I could go gluten-free for three months or so, and if I notice any change, accept that as confirmation. I'm going to go with the non-invasive option, methinks. And really, the only thing I think about missing--for a lifetime--is baking.

So last night I spent hours looking into gluten-free baking, and I found a few awesome sources; I am confident that delicious sweetness can still fill my kitchen. :) It's just going to require some work and experimentation. I have a few cookbooks I have my eye on, and I think they will help me learn how to modify regular baking recipes, and thus, hand back to me all the options in my baking library. I think I might have to get a kitchen scale, and start weighing ingredients and switching ratios. It will be more work. But I'm truly excited about it. :)

Mockingjay by Suzanne Collins

2010-10-26T01:42:00.005-07:00

My rating: 2 of 5 stars

The book's content needed MUCH more development to work well. Problems with constant summarization/poor pacing in the first couple books (especially the second) were exacerbated here, painfully. The prose felt draft-like, almost like a lengthy plot sketch. Such problems were combined with events that--more than ever--needed proper attention. With proper attention, Collins could have turned suffering that only felt frustrating and annoying into something compelling, complicated, and real. Character and relationship development were really sacrificed to (still summarized) action scenes.

Ultimately, the book felt rushed and was quite disappointing. How it stands almost ruined the series for me.

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Chocolate Chip Walnut Cookies

2010-10-25T18:56:00.009-07:00

This is modified, ever so slightly, from DG Nigella Lawson, and she says that this recipe is the result of countless attempts to find the perfect chocolate chip cookie. I agree that she found it. This cookie is--in the words of my husband--robust. It's thick, but not cakey, with just the right amount of chew. The only changes I made to her recipe were to add less chocolate chips (and of a different kind) and to add some nuts as well. (Also, it calls for superfine sugar, and I used regular granulated sugar, and like I've mentioned already, the results were delicious!)

Chocolate Chip Walnut Cookies
modified from Nigella Lawson
makes 15 cookies

Ingredients:
1 1/4 sticks (10 tablespoons) butter, soft
2/3 cup packed brown sugar
1/2 cup superfine sugar
2 teaspoons vanilla extract
1 egg, refrigerator-cold
1 egg yolk, refrigerator-cold
2 cups all-purpose flour
1/2 teaspoon baking soda
3/4 a bag of chocolate chips, semi-sweet or milk chocolate

1 cookie sheet

Preheat the oven to 325 degrees. Line a cookie sheet with parchment paper.

Melt the butter and let it cool a bit. Put the brown and white sugars into a bowl, pour the slightly cooled, melted butter over them, and beat together. (I simply used a whisk.)

Beat in the vanilla, the cold egg, and the cold egg yolk, until your mixture is light and creamy.

Slowly stir in the flour and baking soda until just blended, then fold in the chocolate chips.

Scoops the cookie dough into a quarter-cup measuring cup to find the perfect cookie size, and then it's pretty easy to eyeball it after. Drop the dough onto the prepared cookie sheet, 8 to a sheet. This will take two batches. Keep the dough in the refrigerator between batches.

Bake for 15-17 minutes in the preheated oven, or until the edges are lightly toasted. Let cool on the cookie sheet for 5 minutes before transferring to wire racks to cool completely. (I baked mine for 17, and took them out even though they didn't quite look done. I left the on the cookie sheets to cool, and never transferred them to a rack, and they were just the right amount of done.)

Author Influences

2010-10-25T12:33:00.005-07:00

I was tagged in this note on Facebook, and thought it was pretty fun.

List fifteen authors, any GENRE, who have influenced you and will always stick with you. Do this in no more than fifteen minutes.

Here are mine:

1. Victoria Holt: for her serious, strong female first person narratives
2. Margaret Mitchell and Alexandra Ripley: for their sagas
3. L.M. Montgomery: for Anne
4. Agatha Christie: for her cozy British atmosphere
5. J.K. Rowling: for her joyously whimsical fantasy
6. Nora Roberts: for a love of romance
7. Marian Keyes: for her mastery of substantive chick lit
8. Jacqueline Carey: for her quiet, epic, perfectly plotted female first person narrative in Phedre
9. Anne Lamott: for her just right book on the writing life and her spiritual journey
10. Julia Glass: for her characterization
11. Percy Bysshe Shelley/Samuel Taylor Coleridge/William Wordsworth/John Keats: for underscoring the purpose of my vision
12. Katherine Mansfield: for her frothy, intimate language and vision of beauty
13. Juliet Marillier: for her quiet, intricate, strong female first person narratives
14. Dodie Smith: for her first person perfection in Cassandra
15. Virginia Woolf: for her rhythms

Who are yours? :)

Blogging

2010-10-22T02:37:00.004-07:00

It's been awhile since I've posted anything on here besides a brief book review. Tonight I read every last one of my old posts, and I was kind of impressed with how often I've actually written on this blog over the years. Who knew I had 300+ posts? Sheesh. And so many of them filled with brilliant but forgotten master plans to get that daily morning routine going--I love it. :) One day, routine, one day, it'll be you and me.

There's a good chunk of memory stored here, too, and, as I am somewhat obsessed with marking my memories--I scatter them through multiple media in a general mess--this pleases me. I want to continue to add more memories to this sort of journal accessory I've got going on here. And so, in such inspired spirit, I return to a quick list.

6 amazing quotes to hold hands with, keep under your pillow, gaze at dreamily, and generally engage with forever after:

-“In giving you are throwing a bridge across the chasm of your solitude.” - Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

-"To love someone means to see him as God intended him." -Fyodor Dostoevsky

-"I was made... not to prove myself worthy but to refine the worth I'm formed from, acknowledge it, own it, spend it on others." -Mary Karr

-"We shall not cease from exploration
And the end of all our exploring
Will be to arrive where we started
And know the place for the first time." -T.S. Elliot

-“Something we were withholding made us weak, until we found it was ourselves.” –Robert Frost

-“Giving frees us from the familiar territory of our own needs by opening our mind to the unexplained worlds occupied by the needs of others.” –Barbara Bush

All just right, yes?

A Vintage Affair by Isobel Woolf

2010-08-03T14:04:00.003-07:00

My rating: 3 of 5 stars
This book was a hard one to rate, as I found it very dull for the first 150 pages--there seemed to be no pulse. The author also has an annoying affinity for ellipsis. I continued reading only because I was page-invested. But after the half, it finally came together in a more appealing way, and I ended up really enjoying it.

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Print is Dead by Jeff Gomez

2010-04-05T09:15:00.001-07:00

My rating: 4 of 5 stars
3.75 stars

Reading this book certainly made me feisty--Gomez writes some things that made me nearly scream in frustration. But his opinions also gave me new things to think about in the digital debate. While I'd already decided that book digitalization heralded some positive possibilities, and thus somewhat tepidly (but with some excitement too) accepted it, I hadn't really considered it as necessary to the culture of reading. Gomez points out that generations now growing up completely online will be unlikely to want to read anything in a format beyond their digital standard, and if digital books are not a fundamental part of the literary landscape, they simply will not read. Here is another reason to embrace digitalization, I suppose.

A few of his points do strike me as silly: he tends to continually compare books to music, and and while I understand that both industries may reflect some similar patterns, I don't think that they are perfectly parallel. I do not believe, as does Gomez, that just because we like to play songs in whatever order we like will mean that we will want to jumble pieces of stories in such a fashion. At least, not as a rule. I hope future generations won't be so daft.

Yet aside from a few false notes, his arguments are thoughtful and provided good material for consideration, and I'm glad I read this book.

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Best Friends Forever by Jennifer Weiner

2010-04-05T09:13:00.001-07:00

My rating: 3 of 5 stars
3.5 stars

This book was a quick and enjoyable read, and throughout most of my reading, I 4 star-liked it. But it was a little uneven, and the end third didn't pull together as well as I'd have liked. Still, it was fun, and I always appreciate books that instantly suck me in! :)

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Book Business: Publishing Past, Present, and Future by Jason Epstein

2010-04-05T09:11:00.000-07:00

My rating: 4 of 5 stars
This book enthralled me at its start, with an optimistic vision of the book's future. Epstein transformed my dislike and wariness of book digitalization into a (still slightly hesitant) excitement for what it might herald. While there are many problems with digitalization that Epstein doesn't discuss, my worries are partially assuaged.

But the best parts of this book (for me at least) were those ideas introduced early on. What followed had some moments of interest, but also sections of information so specific to the career of the author that I wanted to skim forward.

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Wildwood Dancing by Juliet Marillier

2010-04-05T09:07:00.000-07:00

My rating: 4 of 5 stars
4.5 stars

This book was really enjoyable. I listened to it instead of reading it in print, and at times, I think this affected the pace of the story. I can read faster than it was spoken, so during the climax, I really wished I was reading it! A few parts felt a little too leisurely to me, but again, this might be partly because of hearing it. I could have breezed over those parts quicker on my own.

I liked the sweetness of the sisters, the strong weaving of subplots with main arc, and the Eastern European setting. The last third of this book prompted me to neglect some important things, like required studying and sleep to get me to my first class, which I didn't make. But it was really hard to put it down/turn it off.

I think I'm bound to like any Juliet Marillier.

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Catching Fire by Suzanne Collins

2010-04-05T09:05:00.003-07:00

My rating: 4 of 5 stars
I love the characters and plot of this series. I race through it and enjoy each page. My only thought is that I would love it more if it was more fully fleshed out, as sometimes there are noticeable stretches of summary that could do with more detail. It's really good, but with more focus on style, it could be great. But that seems to be the author's way, so I will live with it. And wait eagerly for the next (and I think last) one.

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Writing goes well.

2010-03-03T11:39:00.006-07:00

Nearly everything we've discussed in my fiction class feels uniquely pertinent, and I feel like I've integrated these insights thoroughly: my writing already feels stronger. My sense of scene and pacing has improved--what initially felt like my weakness has now been described as a natural strength. (The Scene Book by Sandra Scofield has been a great text.)

Last night I spend 5-6 hours with 750 words. Those are expensive words, but I'm decently happy with them. (For now. :))

My craft is improving while a comfortable and more effective process is emerging.

Baking love

2009-11-18T10:45:00.002-07:00

So I am once again awash in dreams of sugar and eggs, bursting at the (currently especially plump!) seams with excitement for holiday baking, and once again regularly making sweet things!

Last year, I thought perhaps that baking was essentially too unhealthy for me to embrace it life-long. But alas, I don't think this is the case. And even though I am concurrently entertaining visions of me jogging, etc, and generally leaning more towards health, the love of pretty baked sugar is stronger than ever.

I have cute little fantasies of being a combination librarian/baker, running a little establishment that is comfort to the core. Although that is unlikely, the library has a break room tradition of the many baking librarians bringing in treats to share, so there's that. :) And I read an article in Yoga Journal that delighted me! The author spent a year with a Saturday morning tradition of baking a cake and giving it as a gift to someone. As bakers, we often give treats away, but how neat to make a ritual of it.

Last night, I tried a recipe for french parfait, which was delicious and much creamier than the homemade ice creams I've made. They usually seem to be perfect after a few hours, but after a full day in the freezer have an internal iciness that I don't like. This parfait seemed to avoid that. Yet when I just had a bowl now, I did notice a bit of that iciness as well. So I don't think I'll add the recipe yet.

But I am back in the baking and blogging mode again. Yay!

Love List

2009-09-26T23:48:00.003-07:00

I am filled with so much delight right now that I can hardly handle it. There is cuteness all around. Things I am adoring right now:

1. The richness of the world, and wallowing in it.
2. Cats. Stoli is so cute right now. Seriously. I've never been struck by his cuteness so hard.
3. The inherent delight of life. Sparked by the baby dancing to Beyonce video. Watch it! :)
4. The beauty in expression.
5. Thoughts of building community.
6. Lists.
7. A cold brownie.

Man, I love fall! :)

2009-09-14T08:46:00.003-07:00

In a week of 90 degree + days, this morning feels crisp and breezy, and like the cozy comfort of fall that I LOVE! I got up early, did a yoga workout, had fruit for breakfast, and took the time to jot down my intentions for the day. I have a feeling it's going to be a good one!

There is a long study session in my future (which I'm oddly excited for), potential house dreams to keep me dreamy or even to become reality at some point soon maybe.... and a morning routine incentive that I think is finally the real stuff that'll keep me from hitting snooze too often. :)

The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins

2009-09-09T22:14:00.003-07:00

My rating: 5 of 5 stars
This is a 4.5 for me. The narrative was very sparse, and I tend to enjoy a more rich and full spinning, but the story was GREAT and I grew very attached to the characters. I want the sequel now!! (And luckily for me, I believe it just came out. :))

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Manna for the writer within!

2009-07-07T13:56:00.008-07:00

It's been fun being back in school again. The old dread of finishing has turned into enjoyment. And after the old plans of investment banking and then elementary education, and the more recent intention to wrap it all up in history and then english literature, I've settled on the specifics of finishing my degree in english with a writing emphasis. It's funny to imagine ever having planned to do otherwise. Like I told my friend Janey the other day, it seems to have been a slow and thoughtful progression towards the obvious!

It's nice to have a couple year vista of not only lovely literature classes awaiting me, but now creative writing classes as well. While I believe that all I need to know to be a fiction writer is already inside me (and my collection of 30+ writing books!) and simply requires practice, why not do aspects of that practice while in class, learning from other viewpoints, and enjoying the process as I earn credits?

I even had the new idea to possibly get my MFA in fiction, and then have the option of teaching creative writing myself, as I work on my own novels. Perhaps putting on a free community class for youth? :) A nice option, although I still lean toward getting my masters in library science. If the path of a masters is what is in store for me at all. :)

Something absolutely perfect about my re-introduction into school this summer has been my 7:30 am class. Hmm, that sounds awfully masochistic, I suppose. But it's thrilling to me that after this week, when it ends, I can continue on the same schedule and grasp that ever elusive early morning routine I've been softly and lazily pining for for years....!

While I'm busier than I was before I returned to school, it is still the perfect time to tip into a daily writing practice. Now that my two-summer-classes-in-the-same-session experience (that sucked every spare moment out of my day) is winding up, I am getting ready to blossom into a lovely busyness: busy with requirements like school and work, but also using my own time to fully embrace the creative demands I love but have let linger on the sidelines.

Graceling by Kristin Cashore

2009-06-06T09:54:00.002-07:00

rating: 4 of 5 stars
While I didn't immediately connect with this heroine, I ended up becoming completely immersed in her story. The second half of the book, I didn't want to put it down.

I only wish I found the ending a bit more satisfying. Otherwise, I would have given it 5 stars.

I'm looking forward to her next book, which is listed as a "companion volume" to Graceling with a new cast of characters, Fire.

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P.S. Something neat I stumbled upon this weekend

2009-05-18T23:47:00.004-07:00

The Optimist's Creed/ Promise Yourself

"To be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person you meet. To make all your friends feel that there is something in them. ~ To look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true. To think only of the best, and expect only the best. To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as you are about your own. To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future. To wear a cheerful countenance at all times and give every living creature you meet a smile. To give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others. To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble."

~ C.D. Larson

Gratitude

2009-05-18T12:02:00.002-07:00

This weekend I bought a gratitude journal as a birthday gift for my mom. It was the type of gift that I really wanted for ME, but decided to give to her instead. :) And there is no reason why I cannot keep a gratitude journal on my own, without the lovely and bright cover, without the inspiration prompts and quotes printed within. I sometimes make thankfulness lists, but not as much as I'd like.

So either in my own journal, or on my blog, I want to write of gratitude, more.

Today, I am feel gratitude that I am connected to myself, my soul centered in my heart, my core. That I have Zach and a family that I love, and will love every day. And that I have God, and grace. My soul, my love is not bound by "til death do us part." Nothing can take these away from me, and thus, all will be well, forever and always. :) And that is a thought to smile over. :)

I am grateful that I read of a smiling meditation in Eat Pray Love. I really love that.

I am grateful that I was blessed with a leaning toward the light.

I am so thankful that I know who I am meant to be and what gifts I am meant to offer the world.

I am full of gratitude for the blessings of love that I've been given my whole life. The self-esteem that my family gave me.

I am grateful that I've realized that spending time with my family is a priority.

I'm grateful that the path back to school has been so smooth and made as easy as it could be.

I'm grateful that the sun is shining, and we have a season of walks with the dogs, if only we are good enough dog parents to take advantage of it.

I am grateful I have a husband that loves to spend time with me.

I am grateful for summer fruit. (Now I need to remember to eat it! :))

I am grateful for my health.

I am grateful the dogs didn't ruin anything (too much) while we were gone this weekend. :) (Thank you Louis, for doing such a good job watching them!)

The Bartimaus Trilogy Books 1 and 2

2009-05-13T12:56:00.004-07:00

The Amulet of Samarkand by Jonathan Stroud
rating: 4 of 5 stars
This was an engrossing read.

The characters were not the traditional heros- not as like-able as I would usually prefer, but very interesting. The story is fast-paced and occasionally humorous. The source of magic is a bit different than in most fantasies.

Definitely recommended.

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The Golem's Eye by Jonathan Stroud
rating: 5 of 5 stars
I loved this book. I liked the first one as well, but this one did it just a bit more for me. While other reviewers seemed disappointed by the reduced narration of Bartimaeus and his famous footnotes, I enjoyed the split between the djinni, Nathaniel, and the commoner Kitty. This book allowed more insight into their society, and gave me another hero to root for. Kitty now stands out as my favorite character in this series, although I still care for the others too. And their conflicting agendas, and potential growth can make for a wonderful conclusion that I hope will not disappoint.

I love it when a story pulls together nicely as it goes along.

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Back to business!

2009-04-28T13:27:00.003-07:00

So! I am officially registered for summer and fall of 09 at Boise State, and at the last minute, decided to juggle things about and finish in English Literature instead of history! I'm excited and ready to get this degree done! :) And while I was hesitant about the reading and writing load of an English major, books and writing are what I'm really passionate about, so it felt right. And hopefully I'll be able to wrangle my way into an upper-level history class or two that really appeals to me just for the heck of it. For the epic historical series in my head. :) (I won't tell you what it is, but it's for after the Clara trilogy, and let me tell you, the premise of it all, to me, is awesome! :))

So now I have husband and dogs, grandparents, parents, sister brother, my own reading and writing, library, my sewing, my food love, tons of school stuff.... ugh, officially going to have to be busy for a while. But I'm sure I will do splendidly and it will give me a great reason to get up with Zach at 7 once and for all! Because I'll have to! :)

Another way to create with joy and love!

2009-04-21T11:11:00.002-07:00

Ah, the burgeoning passions that arise inside me.

I think my husband likes to laugh at my streaming interests: some remaining constant, some exploding into intensity and then waning.

The urge to create has always been strong. But translating this into "crafty" channels hasn't been on my radar for a while though, although I used to enjoy stamping and embossing, card-making, and decopauge.

I think I have come full circle, and am now pining for the likes of Martha Stewart's Encyclopedia of Crafts, and am wanting to have craft get-togethers. :)

I love all things homemade, and I love expression, I love vintage, and I love arts. So of course I have again come to this place.

A big part of this new interest is the intention to take up sewing. I've been loaned/gifted this lovely 1976 beauty (from my mother-in-law) and am going to my grandma's tomorrow afternoon for my first sewing lesson. I have visions of great things to come. :)

Favorite things

2009-04-20T09:33:00.004-07:00

Favorite thing about my husband: his soul
Favorite thing about me: how much I care
Favorite new fun idea: craft-night
Favorite place: our downstairs or the library!
Favorite goal: publishing Clara von Silversweet and the Spinning of a Spell
Favorite vision from this weekend: a bird chasing a squirrel

A few things I enjoyed today!

2009-04-15T22:24:00.004-07:00

~Making homemade hummus, and then after being disappointed with the results, liking it more after it sat for a while. :)
~Buying a neat book from a coffee shop that is filled with small ideas to make a difference: Change the World for Ten Bucks.
~Eating an avocado sandwich with the remnants of a salad with onion and garbonzo beans stuffed in, beside my husband eating just the salad. Kind of matching but separate dinners. :)
~Catching up at book group.
~Reading my librarian blogs and finding new YA books I should read.
~Thinking about and creating an evite for my birthday activity: The Shakespeare Festival. Love that place! :)

Eat Pray Love by Elizabeth Gilbert

2009-04-14T01:00:00.002-07:00

rating: 5 of 5 stars
My favorite thing about this book that I remember and hope always will is of Gilbert's teacher in Bali's recommendation to her to do a smiling meditation each day.
I love this.

I occasionally do it, and damn, it is good stuff. Frame your face in a (for me, close-lipped and soft) smile, and breath, and see if your spirit doesn't lift with the corners of your mouth. :) It deserves a place in each day!
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The Seventh Sinner by Elizabeth Peters

2009-04-11T15:49:00.000-07:00

rating: 3 of 5 stars
This was an enjoyable read, although I didn't like it as much as the first Elizabeth Peters mystery I read a week or so ago, The Murders of Richard III. I'm glad I read that first, as my impression of the author was initially better than it would have been if I'd read this one first.
I'm excited to have found a new mystery author with a plethora of books for me to dip into.
On a random note: I read of a 119 pound girl being described in this book as "chubby," although the extra weight was distributed nicely, she says. Very weird! :)

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The Thirteenth Tale by Diane Setterfield

2009-04-09T12:12:00.003-07:00

rating: 5 of 5 stars
I (as well, Kristin!) wish I could give this 4.5 stars. I loved the story for the majority of the book. The first 50/60 or so pages were much slower for me. But since I was very absorbed in most of it, wanting to read it all the time (a delightful feeling I always hope for from a book!) I went with 5 stars.

I didn't warm up to the narrator for the longest time, but oddly enough, was still able to enjoy the story being told.

The blurbs on the back cover and cryptic comments made by characters early on didn't seem to do justice to what followed.

It was an interesting tale that wrapped up nicely.
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Daily writing

2009-04-05T20:05:00.001-07:00

I am sitting in Barnes and Noble, checking out a book of writer’s daily “meditations.” I think I will buy it, although many of the daily meditations are things that don’t excite me. Because many of them also are, and I love the format of daily dips into a well of inspiration. I realize that the real well is myself, and I probably don’t need this book. I could think of 365 activities of my own, I am sure. But I will buy this $18 book anyway. ☺

One activity it mentions for one day is making lists. Gosh, I love lists. It’s like writing-lite. You crystalize ideas, likes, dislikes, set it on paper (or screen) in front of you, and it requires little effort.

And what a fun and easy way to perhaps tap into the brain and start a writing session, gathering ideas that could lend themselves to something else in my writing eventually, or just let me mildly stretch the mind. I think I’ll use this as my own sort of daily writing exercise, if I’m feeling lazy and don’t want to try something harder. ☺

Today’s list, what shall it be? Let’s list some things that interest me enough to make a list…. ☺

Technologies I love and am wary of
Book subjects as a backdrop for fiction that I’m interested in
Baby girl and boy names
Plot lines that might be awesome!
Things that center us
Habits I want to cultivate
Sensory experiences of love
Strings of words that sound luscious

Hmm, listing potential lists seemed to be enough for me for the moment. ☺ Now I wish to get to Clara, which is the ultimate goal.

The Murders of Richard III by Elizabeth Peters

2009-04-02T12:04:00.005-07:00

rating: 4 of 5 stars
Mystery with a librarian protagonist... cutie!

A quick and enjoyable read, although not an exceptionally plotted murder. I've never read Elizabeth Peters before and am happy to have found another mystery author that I like, who writes a character I enjoy. There are many mystery series characters that sound adorable to me, in a wonderful and interesting setting, and then something about them falls so flat that I can't even finish it.

This was very easy to finish! :)

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The Enchantress of Florence by Salman Rushdie

2009-04-02T00:12:00.006-07:00

4 of 5 stars
This was hard for me to rate. 3.5 would have been perfect, if I could have chosen that. Since I couldn't, I jumped up rather than down because it was so creative and rich. I just didn't enjoy it as much as most of my 4 star books. The language was lush, and I appreciate that. I just didn't appreciate the arc of the story, I suppose, as much. I never really cared much about the characters, although I found the emperor's musings interesting. I also found the occasional vulgar references to woman unappealing.

A good book, just not a favorite.

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Library love

2009-03-29T21:36:00.000-07:00

Putting books on hold on my library website is as much fun as buying them on amazon: both clicks start a process of a book being sent my way. Love it!

Not only is it fun, but checking out books from the library is curing me of my bad habit of starting too many books and not finishing them. With library books, there is no point unless it is read! :)

Once I can again afford to buy my books (as I do love collecting), I will emerge into the bookstores a changed reader, thoroughly thorough. :)

If you have not explored the wonders of your local library (they also have divine programs for kids!!), you really should! :)

Things to always remember and instill in my children- yes, I think of odd things like this often. :)

2009-03-19T10:33:00.000-07:00

~Be filled with love and grace.
~Be true to yourself, and all you’re meant to be. Be centered in your heart.
~Bring attention (with intention)
~See God. Engage with the world’s wonder!
~Believe!
~Pray.

Everything with love and joy, peace from a calm heart… Christmas all the time! :)

Love List

2009-03-12T14:47:00.000-07:00

I love to make lists, it's true. There have been the thankfulness lists, the joyfulness lists. Now I feel like writing a love list.

I was just sitting listening to a song by Ginny Owens, an inspirational singer who always moves me, and thinking how incredibly lucky I am to have been blessed with all the love in my life and also so early in my life undergone growth that helped to so fimly center me in my heart and open me to grace. I feel like I've questioned the very idea of reality and my heart answered and brought me back to God. And since the answer came straight from within it feels so right. I think that I've been blessed with so much possibly because I'm meant to be a strong force of love in the world.

But I have to say, I can sometimes laze the time away. Today I felt kind of crappy and enjoyed episode of episode of Poirot. Totally fine. But before I go to work, instead of maximizing my last few minutes of laziness, I feel prompted to focus on being loving, and what I can do the rest of the day to give love. And make a list out of it. Just a short one, with a few small things I want to do instead of being lazy.

~Take the dogs for a short walk, because I'm usually selfish and do my own thing and thus they're inside way too often.
~A cute text for Zach.
~Not speak or agree with ill of anyone at work tonight.

I know these will not shake the foundations of our world, but they are important for me, and while small, will make today more worthwhile.

Have a lovely day, if you may be reading this, and may you be centered within your heart, always! :)

P.S.

2009-03-08T16:45:00.000-07:00

Expect a few new healthier deliciousness recipes in the next week.

Brilliant!!!

2009-03-08T16:23:00.000-07:00

I have concocted the most brilliant plan ever to establish routine in the areas of my life I am most craving it!

I thrive on routine. And I regularly don't have one.

For years, I've been trying to develop a yoga practice.

For years, I've been trying to establish a daily writing habit.

For years, (and on this I've been successful for a long period of time once) I've tried to cultivate healthy eating habits.

For about six months (ever since I've been married!), I've been trying without much effort to get up early when Zach does, so we can be on the same schedule and I want to go to bed at the same time he does!

So I decided a few days ago I was going to master a few of these things for just 10 days. And go from there. Get up with Zach around 6:30, do a yoga workout, get dressed, then write either 2,000 words or 2 hours. Also, eat only fruits, vegetables, whole grains, with one exception in the day.

All things I no longer wanted on hold! But I was considering, is it really smart or realistic to attempt so much all at once? Am I just setting myself up for disappointment? I knew that to realistically make progress in the direction I crave, I needed to cut it back. But I didn't want to cut any area out!

I'm so excited about the book I'm working on, and ready to finish and seek publication! I know the only thing holding me back is a lack of discipline in daily writing. With this, it will be so much easier to pick up where I left off. The momentum will carry me through. I'm in a writing group, and my writing life is growing. NOW is the time for me to come into the fullness of my writing potential.

I've been toying with yoga for years, aware of all the health and life benefits it showers down! But I do it once every month or two! Why? Because I'm kind of lazy, and don't often feel like doing a half hour workout!

I've been married for six months, going to bed sometimes with Zach and sometimes later. I don't like it. I want to go to bed with my husband EVERY NIGHT! (That I don't work, at least.) But to do that, I need to get up earlier.... And I want that to happen now too!

And in regards to food, ever since I added dairy back into my diet months ago, I've eaten so much crap, and my body is not responding well. I know that by the time I have children, I want my body to be the safest and healthiest environment for them, and also, my health hasn't been perfect lately. Food has SOO much to do with the state of your health, and there is no time like the present!!

So really, I didn't want to not work on any of these areas. I want all of them as part of a new routine, starting now.

I was talking with my friend Stephanie last night, and she said of her own yoga practice, that while she often does way more than I can imagine (she's an instructor), some nights she'll just do child's pose for 5 minutes. And while this should have been obvious, it prompted me to think, that is the answer!

I want to start developing a yoga practice now, but why not, instead of insisting on a 30 minute DVD or hour class, just ask of myself that I do some yoga? Some days I will do a full workout, and some I will do one or two poses for a few minutes, simply establishing the routine that it is a part of my daily life.

The same with writing. Why would I go from writing once every week or even two weeks to writing 2 hours a day? How about starting at expecting daily writing on my novel from myself Monday through Friday, but leave it at that. Let the habit develop, and some days will be a lot, some not very much. Once the habit is there, the production will soon soar!

And then with these two intentions softened, I can realistically focus on all four of these areas in my life: eating raw till dinner (my modified eating intention), getting up with Zach in the am, yoga, and writing.

And focus on doing these things every day as intended for 21 days, to start. The length of time it takes to establish a habit.

So this was the plan. And today.... oh, today.... I added the perfect little extra.

I've never been much of a girl for "rewards." I do what I want! So doing that, rewards hold no value, because I reward myself daily anyway. :) But lately, I actually have been holding back. From my favorite activity, no less! Being married, paying for a wedding, being responsible as a team with money..... it has seriously hampered my free for all book buying! :) I buy one every once in a while, but I feel kind of bad, because now it's our money. So! Besides being passionately devoted to the cultivation of these new habits, I am also offering myself a reward at the end of a perfect 21 routine forming days. A monthly book budget. Not a hefty one, of course. But a means of regularly buying books and feeling perfectly fine about it. :) Pretty much the only reward I've ever conceived of in my life that is motivating to me. :)

Brilliant! :)

WIsh me luck!

Interview.

2009-03-07T11:19:00.000-07:00

My friend Stephanie was interviewed on her blog and it looked fun! Here are her questions to me! :) If anyone else wants to do it, say Interview Me! in my comments, and I will email you five questions for you to answer on your blog, tailored to you! :)

1) You are such an amazing person with so many talents. One of which is one that I have always dreamed of having, writing. What inspires your writing and what about it do you love most?

I first seriously considered with the idea of writing (that I remember) when I was back in Boise from U of I, starting my long hiatus from being in school, and trying to think of career paths that wouldn't involve me having to go back to school! :) Being a life-long reader, the idea of writing a novel myself came to me. I'd written short stories in middle school, but it had been a long time, and I'd never really finished any! But I decided I should seriously try it. I then read a book called Making Your Creative Dreams Real: A Plan For Procrastinators, Perfectionists, Busy People, and People Who Would Really Rather Sleep All Day (great title, huh? :)), which led me to start making small steps in the direction of writing. It took a while for me to start doing it, instead of just thinking about it, but if felt so right and I loved it. :)

Now, what inspires it is a desire to make a difference, as well as have a second home in Europe! :) (The dream of being the next J.K. Rowling or some such! :)) What I love about it most, for myself, is how it can help to center you in yourself, crystalize your thoughts and beliefs and place them firmly on paper (or screen). What I think I'll love about it most if I am ever published is the impact I have on kids. I'm working on a YA novel now, and kids feeling good about themselves is one of the things I've always cared about a lot. Books really affect your thinking, especially when young, and I would love to help kids to believe more in themselves and all the beauty in them and the world.

2) I was a vegetarian for 6 months last year so this question always intrigues me....How long have you been vegetarian, why did you become vegetarian, was it a hard adjustment and what does your hubby think???

This is kind of funny to me, but I don't remember the exact age I was when I became a vegetarian! :) Again though, it ties to that book I mentioned above, because when I read it, it asked you to make a big long list of all the dreams you have for life, small and large, anything you want to pursue or learn about or do. And one thing on my list was, "Learn more about vegetarianism." I'd kind of toyed with the thought of it in my head before, in kind of a naive Disney-esque way (like, what if animals are really like this, and we don't know it?? :)), and had even decided to stop eating meat once, which only lasted a few days. I'd never really looked into it deeply though, and wanted to.

So I started researching it, and ended up finding out about an industry that I just couldn't be a part of anymore. It had nothing to do with silly Disney movie thoughts, but cruelty. I've never since been bothered by people eating animals, necessarily- I think that our ideal diet for health probably consists of fruits, vegetables, nuts, whole grains, beans, and a little bit of meat, perhaps. But the industry that provides us with 99% of it goes completely against nature. I believe animals are meant to have a chance to live the life God meant for them before becoming a part of the food chain- not be in a tiny cage their whole life without room to turn or extend a limb. I also believe we area meant to love, and factory farming is about the furthest from love I can imagine!! It is so cruel. I can't be a part of it.

I have eaten fish for a few months in there, and possibly might do so again in the future. And I implore people, not to necessarily give up meat, but to buy local meat raised outside the factory farm system. Plus then you're supporting small farmers!

It wasn't really a hard adjustment for me. It's pretty easy to eat anywhere without meat. And Zach is great- he has always been really supportive of whatever is in my heart, no matter the inconvenience to him. (And this comes up on a few different things! :)) We eat dinners that I make, which I hope to think are rather yummy sometimes, and when he's out and about in the world, he eats what he likes, which sometimes includes meat and sometimes not. :)

3) You are a beautiful newlywed!!! CONGRATS! What is your favorite part of being married?

Thank you, Stephanie! You and Ben still seem like beautiful newlyweds, although you've been married for years now! :)

I think my favorite part of it is the forever forever after-ness and being part of a new team, a new family, with such a wonderful person. I was so lucky in finding and loving Zach. We will be by each other's side with love all about us and a big family for ninety plus years! What a wonderful thought. :)

4) Sum up your life so far in 6 words.

Blessed by love, sense of self.

5) I can tell you live your life to the fullest with your WHOLE heart! What is one event you feel has impacted/shaped you into the person you are today the most and what is one memory that you can't wait to create???

Well, I think that what shaped me most into who I am today is, without a doubt, my family, and most especially, my mom. Their love gave me belief in myself, and inspired me to be everything good that I am. But that's a whole lifetime, not one event, let's see....

There's something that I think has really stamped itself on me, and shaped perhaps, the things that I feel most passionate about affecting in my life. I remember being on the bus in middle school, sitting close to the back. I was a quiet girl, not popular, but friends with occasional "popular" kids, and not ever picked on. There was a boy sitting across from me that was kind of the awkward sort, the boy that did get picked on. Another boy on the bus somehow got his backpack and wouldn't give it back to him, and then spit a luggee (is that how you spell it?) into it, and then gave it back. A bunch of people were laughing and I was just mortified at how this boy must feel- in the moment, and having to go home and tell his mom what had happened. I felt like I should say something, stand up for him, call the bully out on how stupid what he just did was. Be some sort of force for solidarity with this friendless boy who was alone and being laughed at and treated as if he was so different and deserved such different treatment. And I didn't do anything. I just sat there, too afraid of my own sort of standing within the bus hierarchy or whatever, to stand up for this boy. I went home and told my mom about it, and cried a lot.

I've read the idea that something in the past you have failed to do right sometimes becomes an issue close to your heart . So I think this may have affected my desire to help kids' self-esteem (along with the knowledge that it makes such a difference in their whole future happiness and the thankfulness that my family gave me this gift). And also perhaps to stand up for those that are forgotten and treated with cruelty, and need a voice. I hope I always remember this, and I hope it always makes me tear up, and remember the shame that I did nothing.

On a happier note, the memory I can't wait to create.... (although we're not quite ready to create it :)) is having a baby. :) Picking out those baby books and baby names and starting the biggest project of love we'll ever undertake in this world! :)

Also, buying our first house, taking my first trip to Europe, and of course, finishing my manuscript for my novel, Clara von Silversweet and the Spinning of a Spell, and then hopefully.... getting published! :)

Thank you for the questions, Steph! :)

Reallly, March, really??

2009-03-06T10:01:00.000-07:00

I took a look outside this morning and this is the ridiculousness that greeted me. I mean, really.

A dip into Instant Karma

2009-03-02T18:07:00.000-07:00

I'm glad I named this blog The Kaleidoscope Kitchen, because all over the place it shall be.

I thought I'd found one of my life's passions in baking recently, but the sugar overload of baking three times a week plus has driven me back into the arms of real food and nutrients. So out come the vegetables. Now I'll have to post some deliciousness for what most of you people have been eating for dinner, while I was eating apple tart. I love the kitchen fires representing more than just something that tastes good- desserts feel sweet and fun and happy and I love those qualities in life. But healthy food also represents nourishment, something I crave for body and soul. So I shall temper nourishment with bits of sweet, perhaps. But this is a kaleidoscope, I suppose, so you never know what food I'll be in love with next!

For now though, I simply wanted to share some thoughts from one of those awesome books you buy filled with inspiration, that you dip into and love, then forget about for a year or two. Here's a taste:

~There are no mistakes in life, only lessons.

~Happiness is never stopping to think if you are. (Paul Sondreal)

~Be kind to a pushy salesperson.

~Never speak loudly to each other, unless the house is on fire.

~Look at people when they speak to you.

~Strive for progress, not perfection.

Banana Cranberry Bread... or Nutty Banana Bread, both devine

2009-01-15T09:58:00.000-07:00

Now this is delicious, and I've been a bit peeved about it this season. I've made so much of this stuff to give away for Christmas, and all I've gotten myself is one measly little slice. I usually tend to eat my baking in bulk, so my body isn't happy about it!

I was spoiled at first, when I discovered my local co-op had an old banana box where I could buy them immediately ready for baking fun, and at half the price. Then once I started relying on it, it disappeared! So I suppose I'll have to wait a few more days to make this again. I hope you have some bananas on hand right away though. And now that cranberries are disappearing too, try frozen, or skip the cranberries altogether and substitute chopped pecans. Doesn't it look so homey sitting sliced on my mom's old breadboard? I love it!

Banana cranberry bread or Nutty banana bread
makes 4 mini-loaves or 1 standard loaf
modified from Joy the Baker

4 ripe bananas, smashed
1/3 cup melted butter
3/4-1 cup packed light brown sugar (I used 3/4)
1 egg, beaten
1 tsp vanilla
1 tbs amaretto (I used Disarrono)
1 tsp baking soda
pinch of salt
1 tsp all-spice
1/2 tsp nutmeg
1 1/2 cups flour
1 cup fresh cranberries (or 1 cup chopped pecans)

Preheat the oven to 350 degrees. In a large mixing bowl, mix melted butter into the mashed bananas. Mix in the sugar, egg, amaretto, vanilla, and then the spices. Sprinkle the baking soda and salt over the mixture and mix in. Add the flour and mix. Add the cranberries (or nuts) and stir until just incorporated. Pour mixture into a buttered 4x8 loaf pan (or minis). Bake for 1 hour. (Minis about 50 minutes.) Cool on a rack.

Done! So easy!

A note on dough.

2008-12-30T23:54:00.000-07:00

So I have to say, I'm feeling pretty bad-ass.

I followed the recipe for sweet tart dough laid out for me in my glorious book Paris Sweets, which just happens to be dough for 3 tarts.

This is the way to do it!

I feel so domestic goddess-esque knowing that I can just pop my frozen disc of homeade delicious almond-accented dough onto the counter, and have a tart in the oven in less than an hour. Never again will I not have dough on hand, for whenever inspiration or creativity or gluttony strikes.

I advise you to do that same.

:)

Simple Apple Cake

2008-12-28T22:24:00.000-07:00

Tell me this doesn't look like a perfect breakfast.

This is such an easy and versatile recipe. I've made it both for family holidays, or just to have around to snack on (like this morning for breakfast). I love apples in all sorts of forms, and while I love an apple tart, I think it's fun, and just so gosh darn easy to throw them in this quick cake from Heidi Swanson.

Tonight I made it to serve to a few friends over for dinner (after dinner- I know I talk about dessert as a meal quite often...). It looks unpresuming, and is simple tasting, but so solidly good. I like it kind of cold from chilling out in the fridge, dense and moist. I whip some cream to go along with it, even though when I follow this version, I usually prefer mine plain. (Everyone else always likes the cream.)

But tonight I made this with allspice instead of cinnamon (I was all out and hadn't realized it), which was still good (more savory), but I thought benefited from the whipped cream. I whipped heavy whipping cream with a couple spoonfuls of sugar, and a couple splashes of amaretto, which was delish!!

I've realized that I have a penchant for my bottle of Disarrono, and am feeling compelled lately to splash it into a lot of recipes. I think perhaps I might go have a splash or ten on the rocks. I leave you with...

Simple Apple Cake
serves 12

2 cups chopped apples, cut into 1/4 inch cubes with the peel on (this is about 2 apples)
2 1/2 cups flour (all-purpose or whole wheat)
1 tbs baking powder
2 tsp cinnamon (or allspice if you dare)
1/2 cup sugar
1/2 tsp sea salt
2 eggs
1 cup buttermilk
1/4 cup butter, melted and cooled a bit
more sugar for top, I use about 8 tsp for a nice even coating

Preheat oven to 400 degrees. Butter and line a 9 inch square pan.

Place the chopped apples in a bowl of water and juice of one lemon. Set aside.

Combine the flour, baking powder, cinnamon, sugar, and salt in a large bowl. In a separate bowl, whisk together the eggs and the buttermilk. Whisk in the melted butter. Pour the buttermilk mixture over the flour mixture and stir until barely combined- don't over-mix. Now drain the apples and fold into the cake batter.

Pour the batter into the prepared pan, pushing it out toward the edes. Sprinkle all over with sugar, a nice even coat. Bake for 20-22 minutes. Serve warm or cold or room temperature.

This makes me laugh.

2008-12-23T09:43:00.000-07:00

I love to bake.
My dogs (ok, one in particular) loves to eat.

I spend hours looking at cookbooks, mixing up batter.
He spends hours plotting how to get to it, food, food, any beloved food.

Now I have a very small kitchen. And I'm doing some holiday baking. I need somewhere to store things until they can be wrapped up nicely.

So in the cupboards they go. On top of the fridge. Sometimes baking racks can be a bit dicey to keep even as I try not to scrape the top of my treats. But somehow I prevail, and deliciousness makes it out of the danger zone into our mouths or into the car to take to someone else.

Here we feature (beneath many layers of plastic wrap) peppermint double chocolate chip cookies bundled up on the left, and cranberry banana bread on the right. The recipe for cranberry banana bread soon to follow!

Cranberry Almond Biscotti

2008-12-22T12:41:00.001-07:00

I'm making gifts of baking for the first time this year, and biscotti seemed like a perfect thing to fill a part of my tins! It's much easier to make than I'd realized, and it keeps for a long time. I'd never been that much of a fan of the crunchy cookie until I started dipping it into some delicious hot drink, like you're meant to, and then I loved it.

I modified a recipe from Tartine which modified a recipe from Chez Panisse. :)

I decided to add white chocolate to half of them, which I have to admit, didn't turn out as pretty as I would have liked. I just used a zip lock bag with the tip cut out, and half of my chocolate got a bit over-microwaved and thick to come out easily, and the tip I cut out too big, I think... But enough excuses, here it is- you can do a prettier job of it, hopefully!

Cranberry Almond Biscotti
makes about 25 pieces, some long, some short

1/2 cup almonds
1/2 cup cranberries
1/2 cup unsalted butter, very soft
3/4 cup sugar
2 large eggs
4 tsp Dissarono, or another almond flavored liqueur
2 cups plus 2 tbsp all-purpose flour
1 1/2 tsp baking powder
1/4 tsp salt
1 additional egg for egg wash (if desired)

Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Spread the almonds on a baking sheet. Place in the oven and toast for 3 minutes. Coarsely chop the nuts and set aside. Reduce the oven temperature to 325. Line a baking sheet with parchment.

Cream the butter until light and creamy, about 2 minutes. Slowly add the sugar and beat until light in color and fluffy, about 2 minutes. Add the eggs and beat until the mixture is smooth. Beat in the Disaronno. Add the flour, baking powder, and salt, and mix until just combined. Stir in the chopped nuts, then the cranberries.

On a floured work surface, divide the dough into 2 equal portions. Shape each portion into a log about the length of your prepared baking sheet and about 2 inches in diameter. Set the logs on the baking sheet (be careful, this can be tricky), spacing them about 2 inches apart. If you want to glaze the biscotti, whisk the egg and brush it over the logs.

Bake the logs until they are lightly browned on top, about 25 minutes. Let the logs cool on a rack for about 5 minutes, then transfer to a cutting board and cut on the diagonal into slices. Return the slices cut side down to the baking sheet. Bake the cookies until the edges are slightly toasted, about 5-10 minutes longer. Let the cookies cool completely on a wire rack. If you like, dip them in or swirl on some chocolate. They will keep in a tightly covered container at room temperature for several weeks.

New home for food!

2008-12-22T10:00:00.002-07:00

You can find my new cooking blog over here: The Kaleidoscope Kitchen :) I'm going to settle in and stay awhile this time. :)

Peppermint Double Chocolate Chip Cookies

2008-12-18T15:05:00.006-07:00

These cookies from Joy the Baker taste like homeade and chewy versions of Girl Scout Thin Mints. (And thus so much better!)

I just made these yesterday and they are my husband's favorite cookie I've made so far- he thinks they're wonderful! They're flat and chewy, my favorite cookie texture. And they are super chocolatey. I think they'll be perfect for holiday gift boxes. :)

Peppermint Double Chocolate Chip Cookies
makes about 27 bigish cookies

1 1/4 cups all-purpose flour
3/4 cups unsweetened cocoa powder
1 tsp salt
3/4 tsp baking soda
1 cup unsalted butter at room temperature
1 cup sugar
2/3 cup packed brown sugar
1 tsp pure peppermint extract
2 large eggs
12 oz chocolate chips (I used half milk chocolate and half semisweet)

Center a rack in the oven and preheat to 375 degrees. Line two baking sheets with parchment.

Whisk together the flour, cocoa, salt, and baking soda.

In a large bowl, beat the butter until smooth. Add the sugars and beat for another couple minutes, until well blended. Beat in the peppermint. Add the eggs, one at a time, and beat for a minute after each egg goes in. On a lower speed, add the the dry ingredients in 3 portions, mixing only until each addition is incorporated. By hand, mix in the chocolate pieces.

Spoon the dough by rounded tablespoonfuls onto the baking sheets, leaving about 2 inches between spoonfuls.

Bake the cookies, one sheet at a time, for 11-12 minutes. Allow the cookies to cool on the sheet for 1 minute, then transfer to a rack to cool fully. (Use a spatula to remove from sheets!)

Cozy comfort. And Lemon Bars!

2008-12-10T13:14:00.001-07:00

Cozy comfort. It's something I've been quite fond of my whole life.

I think the reason I immediately fell in love with baking the very night I rushed out to buy my first cupcake mix and cheap muffin tin- at the ripe old age of 25- was because of the comfort factor. I love the tradition. I love making things that are sweet and pretty. I love being able to give away these cute confections that I put myself into, in the hopes that they will make someone special to me feel taken care of.

I think cozy comfort is anything that nourishes us, inside or out. Anything reminding us of family, love, joy, happy peace, connecting, the wonder of the world around us and how lucky we are for all we have. Beauty. Anything delicious.

For me~
BBC murder mysteries.
The library.
My mom's house.
Picking out Christmas cards at the book store.
Knowing that all is well-- perhaps lovely, even?-- and more goodness is on the way.

And lemon bars!

These were my first baking from scratch, something that used to seem so impressive and daunting, and now, not really hard at all, just the enjoyable and right way to do it! :)

This recipe, adapted oh so slightly from JoyOfBaking.com, is so good, so dangerous...

I love and love lemon in sweets. The way the sour tang tempers the sweetness..... mm, it just makes these bars all the more binge-able, which is a delight and alas, not ideal. But we must strive to continually grow, and each time I make a batch of these, I offer myself the opportunity to practice restraint! And as I am a work in progress................

These are one of my favorite things to bring to my parents and grandparents. They love them, and it gets them away from my powdered sugar-stained fingers that don't seem to stop until the pan is empty.

Of course, I invariably regret it the next day when I don't have my breakfast, lunch, and dinner of choice available anymore. But I work through the pain, or soon make some more.

I give you~
Lovely Lemon Bars

1/2 cup unsalted butter, room temperature
1/4 cup confectioner's sugar
1 cup all-purpose flour
1/8 tsp salt

1 cup granulated sugar
1/3 cup fresh lemon juice (from about 2 large lemons)
2 eggs
1 tbs grated lemon zest (just get all you can from the 2 lemons)
Wash and zest the lemons first. Then, juice the lemons, either with a handy kitchen utensil made just for doing this sort of thing, or using a strainer and just squeezing really hard.
2 tbs all-purpose flour

More confectioner's sugar for dusting

Preheat oven to 350 with rack in center. Butter or spray an 8x8 baking pan.

Cream the butter and sugar until light and fluffy. I use a hand mixer for this. Add the flour and salt and beat until the dough just comes together. Press into the bottom of your greased pan and bake for about 18 minutes. Remove from oven and place on a wire rack to cool while you make the filling.

Beat the sugar and eggs until nice and smooth. Add the lemon juice and zest and stir to combine. Fold in the flour. Pour the filling over the shortbread crust and bake for 20 minutes, or until the filling is set. Remove from oven and place on a wire rack to cool. Dust with powdered sugar.

That's it!

Enjoy- they are so gosh darn good.

Cutie Stuffed Peppers with Mashers

2008-12-09T12:28:00.008-07:00

Have I ever posted this recipe? I don't think I have. It's ever so slightly (and lazily) modified from Veganomicon and it's quite tasty. The peppers look super cute done length-wise instead of standing up, I think. :) Zach told me last night that he thinks it might be his favorite thing I've made so far, so there's a lovely endorsement for ya, too. :)

The mashed potatoes are quite easy. You peel them, cut them up, boil them for about 20 minutes, drain them, mash them up with about a half stick of butter and some milk. I'll tell you how I time it with the peppers below.

Then here's for the peppers:

Cutie Stuffed Peppers
Serves 4-8 (or 2 with lovely leftovers!)

4 large bell peppers (any color, but red seem to be nicer sizes to fill, sometimes, although a mix of colors is attractive!)
2 tbs olive oil
1 medium yellow onion, chopped finely
2 jalepenos, cut in half, seeded (or not, if you want it super hot), and chopped
1 cup finely diced carrots
4 cloves garlic, chopped finely
5 tsp Italian herb mix (or some oregano, basil, thyme separately)
1 tsp salt
1 15 oz can diced tomatoes
2 15 oz cans black-eyed peas, drained and rinsed
1 cup uncooked brown rice (or 2 cups cooked)

Start preparing the rice, if uncooked.

Put a large pot of water on to boil. Get the potatoes ready for the pot, then set aside (if making). Preheat the oven to 350 and grease a 9x13 in baking dish with a little olive oil.

Cut the peppers in half lengthwise, trying to leave the stem intact on one side, because it's pretty! Remove the seeds and membranes, preparing a nice home for the filling to come. Submerge the peppers in the boiling water and cover. Let them boil for 5 minutes, then remove them with tongs and rinse immediately with cold water to cool them down.

Then use the same pot of hot water for your potatoes. (Put the potatoes in the pot, and boil for about 20 minutes. Drain, mash, add butter, milk, whatever you like.)

So after taking out the peppers, heat the olive oil in a large skillet. Saute the onions, jalepenos, and carrots for about 10 minutes. You want the veggies to brown, especially the carrots. Add the garlic about 5 minutes into the cooking process. Add the herbs and salt, then saute for 1 more minute. When the mix is nice and browned, add the tomatoes, black-eyed peas, and cooked rice. Stir and cover, and cook for 10 minutes.

Arrange the peppers in the dish, and fill them with the mixture. Bake for 25 minutes.

P.S.

2008-12-04T12:52:00.002-07:00

My cute little herbs have hit a rough patch. I think maybe i drowned them. Not sure. You don't want to see what they look like. :(

Fun fun fun things

2008-12-02T10:39:00.005-07:00

Cutie flats, all eccentric girled up with some socks for wintertime!

I love Advent calendars! The chocolate is so tasty too. :)

I love fog with Christmas (or any) lights!

And I love muffins- so easy to make, it's like DG lite.

I write~

2008-12-01T08:31:00.004-07:00

This is breakfast, yum! Please don't punish me, Type 2 Diabetes.

Today was the first day I wrote in my journal since we've moved- I just found it in a box the other day. I was browsing back through a few pages, and I found this list I'd made of why I write, and it was good to see again. The perfect note to start re-immersing myself in Clara von Silversweet and the Spinning of a Spell.

I write-
I write to thoughtfully crystallize my relationship with the world.
I write to try and surprise myself with my elucidation and literariness!
I write to make a living of a passion.
I write to influence others.
I write to feel more like myself.
I write to give my thoughts permanence.
I write because I enjoy it.
I write because I love creating fantasy.
I write because I read.
I write because I know that it's essential to my happiness.
I write because I love the romanticism of being a writer.
I write to communicate.
I write to connect.
I write because I like the flow of a pen on paper and the clack of my fingers on keys.
I write because it is perfect for me!

So now you'd think I'd be off to write, right? Actually, no. :) Today I'm dedicating myself to reading Three Cups of Tea, at least until I go be Volunteer Librarian Robin, a la this~

I am determined to have a book group book finished on time this month, for the first time! And of course I still didn't start the book until three days before, so I've got to spend some quality time with it today. But I will write later tonight. And now on to my book!

Oopsies.

2008-11-29T20:58:00.004-07:00

So my week of gratitude got misplaced. Not necessarily the gratitude, but the posts recounting it. :) So instead, I'll throw in a bonus post-Thanksgiving burst of yays.

I'm thankful for a great best friend to throw a shower for, and a fun and cozy new home with my husband, and also, beautiful china to use for cute little occasions. :)

Here's a recipe too, for a cranberry pecan frangipane tart. Well, here's the link to it, at least, taken straight from smitten kitchen. It was good, not super sweet, but very nice. It was a lot of steps, though. I probably wouldn't mind so much in a day not also consumed with other baking projects and time tables! :)

It was good, the bridal shower was good, and now I am ready to devote myself to the joys of the holiday season, starting tomorrow! :)

Gratitude

2008-11-21T12:48:00.008-07:00

I am thankful for the wonderful guy that I ended up being lucky enough to share forever with!

I find him quite good-looking, but that's secondary. Look at that face! :)

What really amazes me is his heart. How he always does the right thing. In a heartbeat, how it needs to be done. I remember once I saw something across our old apartment complex (now this is across the pond) at the window, kind of hanging out, and mentioned it, wondering what it could be, and in a flash he'd jumped out of his chair and was at the apartment opposite. It was a child. I mean, of course, most of us would go to help, but where I was do-do-do, what is that, is that a kid??? What the hell, he was out, and booking it across to the other window, without a thought, and fast. I'll always remember that.

He's always there for me, too. It was never a question of if he would come with me to anything. If I wanted him to, of course he would. (Except the ballet. I don't think he'll go with me to that anytime soon, which is silly, but I guess I can live with that. :)) And he's always been super supportive of my writing, and believed in me, sure I would get there, be published, be successful.

He's always willing to help me out. :) (This was at our old apartment, where he didn't even live, and still, look at him go! :))

He joins me in my cutesy, believe-in-the-magic world, and even adopts some of its terminology with me, at times. :)
He carries me when my 4 inch shoes hurt.
He loves me for the big wonderful mess I am.
He eats whatever I want to make for dinner, or is happy with his peanut butter sandwich.
He loves Christmas!!
He believes in family and forever.

And I am so lucky.

Gratitude

2008-11-21T12:29:00.005-07:00

I'm going to steal an idea from Stephanie here, and attempt to do a daily blog (something I've never done before!) leading up to Thanksgiving focusing on what I'm thankful for. I usually make these lists, but I want to focus on just one thing each time. :)

I'm thankful for my sense of questioning myself. Now this is something that sometimes I am not thankful for, because along with it goes a lot of over-analyzing at times, and sometimes anxiety and other not so peaceful things, but I've realized also that it gives me a lot of potential for growth toward the person I want to become.

I still want to balance this a bit more. :) But I am grateful for it in a way. A weird way. :)

a few of my favorite things~

2008-11-17T11:24:00.007-07:00

new couches with pretty new pillows

people caring more about food being sustainable and humane

our beautiful hutch from Zach's grandma

walking at night with the dogs, seeing a view of the city lights

Zach and I sometimes looking like we're fifteen years old

Christmas time coming

grounding my soul in love, joy, peace, and thankfulness

my new tradition of yum yum oatmeal for breakfast

cuddling with cats

chopping vegetables with Zach

writing cute poems to pass the time at work

thinking about yoga! (doing it regularly is the next step.... :))

going to look at some fun art for the walls tonight

Love as a Way of Life by Gary Chapman

family

Cuties!

2008-11-13T11:43:00.002-07:00

My first seeds sprouting! I can't remember what herb it is, but it must be delicious. I've been watering them every day faithfully, and here is my reward, nice fresh herbs from my kitchen. It charms me. :)

What are you excited for in 2009?

2008-11-04T23:33:00.004-07:00

I am excited to see what an Obama presidency holds, and I wish him all the best for an effective administration.

I am excited to build a home with my new husband, Zach, full of warmth and cozy comfort, and most of all, love.

I am excited to grow my repertoire of recipes, eat them, photograph them, and share them (when I feel the inclination)!

I am excited to finish my YA fantasy novel, Clara von Silversweet and the Spinning of a Spell, and start submitting it to agents!

I am excited to pursue a slower, more sustainable food tradition within our family, and with like-minded friends. (I'm excited to start using the phrase, "our family," not just referring to who I grew up with!)

I am excited to get back to school and finish up that degree.

I am excited to continue volunteering at the library, and soak up the atmosphere laden with one of my very favorite things, books.

I am excited to spend more time with my family, especially my sister.

I am excited to live my life focusing on attention to the moment, and being present, and centering on love, joy, and peace of spirit.

I am excited to start going back to church, and embracing my odd combination of eastern inclinations fused with my Catholic roots.

I am excited for my first married Christmas with my new, expanded, improved family, being married to Zach! (I know that's 08, but still...)

And that's what I've got for now. :)

Oh, and I'm excited I found NPR News on the radio! :)

Oh my gosh, I just got an email- I'm so excited Proposition 2 passed in California!! Thank you to anyone who voted for it!

First ever Dinner Club get together!

2008-10-18T23:24:00.004-07:00

So my cutie friend Amber corralled us into starting a dinner club, pot-luck style, with themes and delicious fun, and we had our first get together tonight. So fun, so nice. Some wine, folding tables and chairs, two different sets of silverware, good times. Followed by a little game playing action.

Melissa made a beautiful salad served in a hollowed out pumpkin... go her! My salad is sitting beside it, unabtrusively calling for attention to itself in a flashy red bowl. :) It's a good salad though- I've made it once before for a Mother's Day get together and everyone always really likes it. I also made some mashed potatoes, but that recipe's not really worth re-posting... just boil some peeled and cut potatoes, mash with butter and milk and salt and pepper! :)

But here is the recipe I use for Portabello Mushroom Salad (I'll post it tomorrow I think), taken straight from Veganomicon!

Great timing, Renee Glass.

2008-09-27T17:54:00.004-07:00

So I'm in the shower, with a 40 minute window to get ready, hopefully attractively too, and I suddenly get the urge to write. The I-want-to-be-Nora Roberts (it's more her success than her writing) urge, that really propels me to get to work. What timing. How convenient of me, right? Anyway, I sat down, wrapped in my turban, deadline ticking away, and got a couple paragraphs in, and that will be enough for the moment. Ah, once I translate these urges into regular daily writing, I will have arrived!

New blog

2008-09-23T22:08:00.003-07:00

To anyone looking for some blogging action, I've started a new blog, with a focus on just food and books, with an address to match. :) So far, I've only re-posted the same recipes I've posted on here, but as the weeks go by, I hope to add many more! :) Here it is: Delish, Dahling

Love,
Robin

Apple Tart

2008-09-15T10:39:00.005-07:00

This is slightly modified from VeganYumYum. Next time I make it, I might add a top crust as well....

Apple tart
makes a 9" tart

Filling ingredients:
5 Granny Smith apples
1 lemon, juiced
2 tbs sugar
1 tsp cinnamon
1 tsp allspice
1 tsp nutmeg
1/4 cup melted Earth Balance, or other non-dairy butter
Apple jelly, for glazing

Pie crust ingredients:
1 1/4 cups all-purpose flour
1/2 tsp salt
1/2 tsp sugar
1/4 cup vegetable shortening
1/4 cup Earth Balance
2-4 tbs ice water

Add the flour, salt, sugar, shortening, and butter together in the food processor (or cut together with knives). Pulse until the mixture looks like wet sand, with pea sized lumps. Slowly drizzle in water (not too much!) while running the food processor until the dough forms a ball.

Turn the dough onto the counter and press into a disc. Cover in plastic wrap and refrigerate for at least a half hour.

Preheat oven to 400 degrees.

Juice the lemon, and set aside in a bowl.

Peel apples, slice in half and core. Brush all surfaces with the lemon juice to prevent discoloration.

Roll out the dough on a sheet of wax or parchment paper. Dough should be 1/8" thick and larger than the tart pan on all sides (the bigger the better).

Invert dough over the center of the pan. Gently work the dough into the pan.

Slice apples into thin pieces, and arrange in rings, starting at the outside and working toward the center of the pan.

Once the apples are in, coat the top with the sugar and spices. Brush the apples with melted non-dairy butter, then fold the edges of the dough toward the center, and brush the dough as well. Pour any leftover butter over the apples.

Bake at 400 degrees for 50-55 minutes, or until tart is golden brown and apples have color. Glaze with the apple jelly. Let cool most of the way before slicing.

Mmm.

Tomato Basil Cream Pasta

2008-09-03T07:12:00.010-07:00

This is a recipe (photographed in its "leftover" state in a tupperware container!) from a food blog I recently found, VeganYumYum, and it looked lovely, so I tried it, with a few changes. I have to say, that in my personal 5 star food ratiing system, I give it a solid 4. But my husband, who likes almost all of the vegan food I make, didn't care for it. He found the sauce too thick, which could be thinned, of course. I liked it that way, so I'll probably keep this as a lunch recipe, and keep it all to myself! :)

Tomato Basil Cream Pasta
serves 2

Ingredients:
1-2 large, ripe tomato(es)
1/2 cup raw cashews
3 tbs tomato paste (use more if you like)
1/4 cups water
2 tbs olive oil
4 cloves garlic, minced
Pasta- any kind, enough for two (I used whole grain penne, the recipe I saw originally used whole wheat spaghetti)
1 tsp salt, optional
Wine or water, to thin out sauce, optional ( I used about 1/4 cup red wine)
Freshly cracked course black pepper
20 basil leaves, chopped or ripped

Put a large pot of salted water on to a boil.

Core the tomato, then roughly chop it. Add it to your blender, seeds, skin, and all. Add cashews, tomato paste, and water. Blend until very smooth.

Add olive oil to a large saute pan over med/ med-high heat. Add garlic and saute until golden, being careful not to burn.

Once water is boiling, add pasta.

Pour sauce from the blender into the saute pan and bring to a simmer. Add salt if you like, and wine or water, and let cook for 4-5 minutes, stirring occasionally. Taste and season more if necessary. Let simmer until pasta is finished cooking. Drain pasta and add to the saute pan with the fresh pepper and basil leaves. Toss to coat.

Serve immediately, garnishing with more pepper and basil.

Joy

2008-06-26T14:01:00.003-07:00

You know my thankfulness lists? I want to add joyful lists to that. And here will be my first.

The joys in this moment of mine are as follows:

The breezes coming from the open doorways flanking my table (I'm at an adorable coffeehouse)
The texture and character of the art in this corner right in front of me
The peaceful friendliness of this place, of the people who work here and are lounging here- I can learn from them
The peace I feel with my recently tumultuous thoughts right now
The cool richness of my soy latte
The delight in finding my potentially perfect tattoos

Robin

Thankfulness List.

2008-06-15T22:50:00.001-07:00

I like to do these lists, and I haven't done one for a long time.

Things I'm thankful for:
~I'm developing healthy eating habits that will probably keep me disease free.
~I'm starting to play tennis more, and the feel of moving my body around so actively is so fun!!
~I just bought the game Cranium, and it's going to be so fun to play....
~BBC murder mystery DVDs are like atmosphere in a bottle, and since I love atmosphere, and since I have some, this is a good thing for me. (I'm watching one right now.)
~I learned how to plant a squash plant this week.
~The sun felt nice on my heavily sun-blocked skin today, and it will again tomorrow.

Is this something beautiful? Kind of.

2008-06-10T11:07:00.004-07:00

So last night, after feeling pretty comfortable with the simple chain stitch, I decided to try the next step, crocheting into that first chain. I had been planning on just waiting till someone else could try and teach me, but instead I busted out my Stitch'n'Bitch Happy Hookers book, and attempted to translate the instructions into skill. (I am usually really, really, really bad at this.) And it was hard, I wasn't getting it, I shelved the yarn, then decided to try a little more. And I came up with this! I'm not sure if this is what it's supposed to look like, but it might be, and that was enough for me for the night. :) And the best part is, I was able to struggle up to this point without any silly outbursts of frustration. I kept it calm. :)

The birthing of a serious Renee Glass. Or Robin Glass. (Those are my potential pen names. :))

2008-05-28T13:27:00.002-07:00

So after a good hour of surfing the internet, doing some productive things and some not so productive, I am settling down to a good two hours of writing.

I've realized a couple things.

First, I have more discipline than I thought I did. I have no reason to not immerse myself in a daily writing habit.

Second, I want to be a novelist MUCH more than a freelance writer. I want to tell stories, or share personal stories in essays (which falls into a part of freelancing, true). So it's time to focus 95% of my writing energy on my novel. I have about 40,000 words, about a third through. This is with an uber-inconsistent writing schedule. If I could develop a true daily writing habit that lasted more than a week or two.... I would have this draft busted out in a matter of months. I could have the draft before the wedding even.

I was waiting till after the wedding to really concentrate on a routine, a schedule. But why wait? With my writing, it's time right now for a serious commitment.

This and that.

2008-05-25T18:11:00.003-07:00

Hmm, what have I been up to and what inky goodness have I been involved in? Certainly none of my own. I've been slacking on my writing for weeks. I'm still waiting for the magical development of that all elusive regular routine... routine is all I need to get that book finished. And I believe I'll get it going soon. I've made some pretty radical changes lately requiring what would be perceived as some hard-core discipline, so I know I can get myself in the set routine that I need, eventually. I think I'll get on top of that after the wedding.

While I've been falling short on my own writing, I've been consuming plenty of the the writing of others! Hmm, right now I'm reading Faerie Wars by Herbie Brennan, which is a cute YA fantasy. I started a Nora Roberts because I was craving the old-school comfort that I associate with that type of romance, but then lost steam and couldn't finish it. Still reading Dreams from my Father for book group..... I guess I've read a couple of health/diet books, like Eat to Live by Joel Fuhrman, but aside from mentioning if you're interested in being thin and avoiding cancer, heart disease, diabetes you should read this (or something by Dean Ornish), there's not really much to discuss. :)

So I guess this post is heavy in rambling, and light on content. I'm feeling lazy.
And now I'm going to go read something else.

Return of the lemon bars

2008-04-17T12:14:00.004-07:00

So I tried out my first recipe from my new cookbook, The Joy of Vegan Baking, and it was my trusty lemon bars. I'm excited to say they were a total success, and every bit as delish as my old non-vegan lemon bars. My sister even liked them better.

(from The Joy of Vegan Baking by Colleen Patrick-Goudreau)

Ingredients- crust
1/2 cup non-hydrogenated, nondairy butter, at room temperature (I like EarthBalance)
1/4 cup confectioners' sugar
1 cup unbleached all-purpose flour

Ingredients- filling
1/2 cup silken tofu (soft or firm, I used soft)
1 cup granulated sugar
Zest from 2 lemons (the more the better, I think! I zest every last bit off of those lemons. :))
1/3 cup fresh lemon juice (2 to 3 lemons)
2 tablespoons unbleached all-purpose flour
1 tablespoon cornstarch
Confectioners' sugar, sifted (I didn't bother to sift anything)

Preheat the oven to 350 degrees F (180 C or gas mark 4). Grease an 8x8 inch (20x20 cm) baking pan with canola oil or a cooking spray and sprinkle with just a light dusting of all purpose flour.

To make the crust, in the bowl of your electric stand or hand mixer, cream the butter and confectioners' sugar until light and fluffy. Add the flour, and beat until the dough just comes together. Press into the bottom of your prepared pan and bake for about 20 minutes, or until lightly browned. Remove from the oven and place on a wire rack to cool while you make the filling.

To make the filling, in a food processor or blender (oops, just realized I just used my hand mixer!), add the tofu and blend until creamy, about 1 minute. Add the granulated sugar and blend until nice and smooth. Add the lemon zest, lemon juice, flour, and cornstarch. Pour the filling over the baked shortbread crust and bake for about 20 minutes, or until the filling is set. Remove from the oven and place on a wire rack to cool.

To serve, cut into squares or bars and dust with the sifted confectioners' sugar. Wait until you're just about to serve the bars before you sprinkle them with the confectioners' sugar. Otherwise, it will soak into the bars and you'll miss out on that pretty presentation. (I just do it after they've cooled a bit, and I add enough that it stays on there! :)) I think these are best eaten the day they are made, but they can be covered and stored in the refrigerator for up to 2 days. (I tend to bake at like midnight a lot, so I always eat them the next day, and they're great that way! :))

A few thoughts, voices to consider if you haven't before...Love, Robin

2008-04-15T00:17:00.003-07:00

"Government officials now know what the most healthful diet is, and yet will not recommend it." -Erik Marcus

The China Project is called by The New York Times "the most comprehensive study ever undertaken of the relationship between diet and the risk of developing disease." Director Dr. T. Colin Campbell, professor of nutrition and biomedical science at Cornell University summarized the findings: "The China Project's primary finding is that the Chinese who eat the least fat and animal products [this includes diary!] have substantially lower rates of cancer, heart attack, and several other chronic degenerative diseases."

"The thinking man must oppose all cruel customs no matter how deeply rooted in tradition and surrounded by a halo. When we have a choice, we must avoid bringing torment and injury into the life of another, even the lowliest creature; to do so is to renounce our manhood and shoulder a guilt which nothing justifies." -Albert Schweitzer

"If man aspires towards a righteous life, his first act of abstinence is injury to animals." -Leo Tolstoy

"To my mind, the life of a lamb is no less precious than that of a human being. I should be unwilling to take the life of a lamb for the sake of the human body." -Mohandas Gandhi

"People get offended by animal rights campaigns. It's ludicrous." -Richard Gere

"Compassion is the foundation of everything positive, everything good. If you carry the power of compassion to the marketplace and the dinner table, you can make your life really count." -Rue McClanahan

"If man is not to stifle his human feelings, he must practice kindness toward animals, for he who is cruel to animals becomes hard also in his dealings with men. We can judge the heart of a man by his treatment of animals." -Immanuel Kant

"I have no doubt that it is a part of the destiny of the human race, in its gradual improvement, to leave off eating animals." -Henry David Thoreau

"It is the fate of every truth to be an object of ridicule when it is first acclaimed. It was once considered foolish to suppose that black men were really human beings and ought to be treated as such. What was once foolish has now become a recognized truth. Today it is considered as exaggeration to proclaim constant respect for every form of life as being the serious demand of a rational ethic. But the time is coming when people will be amazed that the human race existed so long before it recognized that thoughtless injury to life is incompatible with real ethics. Ethics is in its unqualified form extended responsibility to everything that has life." -Albert Schweitzer

"Nothing will benefit human health and increase chances for survival on Earth as much as the evolution to a vegetarian diet." -Albert Einstein

xoxo

www.vegan.com
www.farmsanctuary.org
Vegan: The New Ethics of Eating

Dreams and Shadows: The Future of The Middle East

2008-04-03T14:33:00.004-07:00

Instead of rambling about this one, I'm just going to link to my review written for The Boise Weekly ran earlier this month. This book is great. It's so great, I need to mention that it's not "educational," but "informative," (much less stuffy and boring sounding, don't you think?) and my final judgement on it is not as it says in the review exactly, but this: "Dreams and Shadows illuminates a land where nothing is certain. But knowing more about the people gives us a greater chance for peace and respect. Dreams and Shadows offers this knowledge in troves, in an amazingly readable book, which—whether it’s full optimism is founded or not—is highly recommended."

Ah, editors. :)

Neat, neat, neat.

2008-04-03T13:07:00.001-07:00

I wish I had this.

In regards to the charm of ink...

2008-04-03T11:13:00.002-07:00

I don't know if I've mentioned it, but um, books are sort of my favorite thing. Oh, ok, I guess there's love and family and humanity, and all sorts of other pretty major deals... but I'm not gonna lie, they've got to work hard to compare with the bound paper I can stack on my bookshelves.

So in honor of this love, this obsession, I'm going to start posting about all the books I read.

Maybe I'll even make a book schedule? Any ideas on books I should read and include?

Re-entering the blogsphere with a bit of fluff.

2008-03-09T12:09:00.000-07:00

I'm ready for spring.
I'm ready to be married.
I'm ready to head to Jamaica.
I'm ready to see my first published writing in The Boise Weekly.
I'm ready to stop slacking off with yoga.
I'm ready to get some new Netflix movies I'm excited about- like Romance and Cigarettes and Le Vie en Rose, or however you spell it.
I'm ready to find some good vegan recipes that don't take me 2 1/2 hours!
And now I'm going to submerge myself in my new books and my BBC murder mystery, wishing only that I had a big, comfy quilt to wrap myself in.

One of the more recent quotes I've stumbled upon and kept, and will share with you too--- :)

"True wealth is an inner state, not an outer one. It's knowing that all's well, and that everything you want is on its way." -Luanne Oakes

"I want to change the world/ Instead I sleep"

2007-10-29T12:08:00.000-07:00

I love that line from Ingrid Michaelson's "Keep Breathing." It encapsulates me, a lot of the time.

To my dismay.

I have a tendancy to lay in bed in the morning much too long, and of taking even longer to get into the swing of my day once I do get up, often mired in Frasier re-runs, online Scrabble, and the like.

For me, routine is key. I need to jump into a morning routine. Note to self: that is MORNING, not after noon.... If I can start my morning earlier than I want to, and forsake the intial burst of laze....(Is that a word? Well, it is now.).... then I can have great days, accomplish what is, to me, great things.

Changing the world, or just living exactly how I want. Feeling all the flavors of the world.

I am so turned on by the idea of embracing each sense, living sensously, being mindful. But gosh, it's suprising how much effort is actually required for me to really absorb all the pleasure around me!

Today, I took Shiner outside, and walked past a tree, leaves crisp and orange and scattered all over itself and the grass. I stopped for a minute when I heard a sound. And saw a leaf struggling free from the branches, then eventually swirling and twirling in a lazy path to the ground. Yes, swirling and twirling. I wouldn't lie to you. It was beautiful. And I almost didn't stop to watch it. And also, I love the colors and the weather right now, so why do I take Shiner on the shortest jaunt outside possible?

Doing my morning yoga will help me center myself in mindfulness for the day, I hope. And I should commit to more morning walk time for Shiner, for both of us. Have things that I always start the day with.

It's time to develp the rituals that incorporate what's important to me into my every single day.

And oddly enough, I think one of those rituals is also going to be cooking.

Last night, I got an urge to bake. To make cupcakes, specifically. So I took my little doesn't-even-have-a-muffin pan-self off to the store and got some stuff. To make the most delish from-a-box-cupcakes ever. And it was so fun. It left me with the baking bug.

So today, I spent over 3 hours in the book store looking exclusively at cookbooks. Mostly all about baking, with a few general vegetarian ones thrown in. And I realized that it's time to start getting creative and fresh with my meals and also my dessert. Not with as little effort as possible. With as much effort as sounds fun. The time it took to bake last night was time I spent enjoying myself. (I brought some of my early efforts to make cupcakes to my mom today, and that was fun too. :)) So bring it on.

I'm embracing the sensous pleasure of food, and making myself a part of it. I wish I had a big kitchen that was equipped to the nines with handy dandy utensils. But I don't and it's not and I'm still going to make it happen.

I can't feel all the flavors of my world by sticking with microwavable dinners.

And dammit, if I can get my ass through that initial morning sludge, the full flavors of the world will be mine. :)

Yay and yuck.

2007-10-27T11:49:00.000-07:00

I love fall, I love pumpkins.

I love warm colors and sweaters and hot coffee on a blustery day.
I love trench coats in every color.
I love PBS murder mysteries set in England, the land of perpetual cool dreariness. A cup of tea sounds delicious. Yay for fall arriving!

Oh, except for the havoc it has wreaked on my usual normal sized nose. Apparently my body wasn't content just taking in the cute colors and crisp air, but wanted some germs too. So the Christmas girl got a dose of Rudolph a little early.

And it doesn't help that my glands are so swollen I almost have a double chin.

So I feel gross and sickly and sorry for myself.

But hey, my plant looks nice.

Some essential opinions from yours truly on the most essential thing.. books, of course!

2007-10-24T12:05:00.000-07:00

1. Hardcover or paperback, and why? Well, this is the thing. I don't care too much either way, but let's have some consistency, please! You know what I hate? I hate it when I have some of the books in a series (or books with some sort of connection) in paperback, and then the new one comes out in hardcover, and like I can wait, so I have to get that one. Especially if the first ones weren't even offered in hardcover! And then I have to have a mix, and they're stuck by each other on my bookshelf, awkward and out of place, and I don't even know how I handle it. Agh. The trials of my life. Stressful, right?

2. If I were to own a book shop I would call it… If I went with my first instinct, something probably girly and very off-putting to male readers. Or even sensible and serious female readers. Like.... oh, shoot, now I don't even know. Fairy dust is cute and I love it but doesn't really have much to do with books, now, does it? Maybe let's go with--- A Piece of the World: Books and Coffee and Comfort. I sort of like that.

3. My favorite quote from a book (mention the title) is… Honestly, I'm not cool or quite smart enough to have a collection stored in my head. I need to go look at my shelves first... be right back. Oh whatever, I totally still don't have one. I glanced at the titles, felt no burgeoning inspiration and decided to pass.

4. The author (alive or diseased) I would love to have lunch with would be… Sorry, literati, but I'd want to bring on Nora Roberts. But only if she could tell me how I could be her. Of course, a better version of her. Hmm, I don't quite feel comfortable saying that about someone making $60 million a year. And yes, money is important to me. Or J.K. Rowling. Even better.

5. If I was going to a deserted island and could only bring one book, except from the SAS survival guide, it would be… It would be a thousand plus page epic that chronicled the life of a strong, beautiful heroine as she travels the world and goes through crazy drama. Written by an author that I liked and similar to something else I'd read and loved, but different. So I could have one virgin reading. That took a few days. Ok, or a full day at least. I tend to enjoy re-reading those crazy epic dramas like Through a Glass Darkly or Gone With the Wind, and re-readability seems a must. And I'd hate to take a risk with my deserted island happiness at stake.

6. I would love someone to invent a bookish gadget that… kept my shelves organized exactly how I wanted them at the moment. If I wanted lush prose, presto, they'd pop to the front. If I wanted strict a strict alphabetized system, there we go.

7. The smell of an old book reminds me of… an old book.

8. If I could be the lead character in a book (mention the title), it would be… Can I have the initial circumstances without the crushing trials and tribulations to overcome? This question is trouble, because some of my favorite heroines have shit that I would never want to deal with. What makes a story a story is the conflict, and I don't want to take on anyone else's novel worthy conflict, thank you very much. So I'm going to have to jump into the not quite lead character of a fantasy novel here (Harry Potter), Hermione Granger, because she has a fantastical magical world and really, not that much bad stuff happens to her. Now, if I can inhabit their world, without their own personal drama, that is a whole different story. But I know that was not the question.

9. The most overestimated book of all times is… Well, I've never personally enjoyed Faulkner. But I wouldn't venture to say that was his fault. I'm sure he did ok for himself in the book world, so yay for him. (And if you're reading this grandpa, thanks for the boxed set anyway, they look nice on my bookshelf!)

10. I hate it when a book… teases me with it's potential, then doesn't deliver. But don't we all?

Thankfulness

2007-10-23T12:05:00.000-07:00

5 things I'm thankful for right this second:

~My hair smells like lemon verbena and it's DELICIOUS.

~I have foundation samples from Sephora to try. Maybe they can make my bulbous nose look pretty again? :)

~Some fluke in the system has Blockbuster sending me movies in the mail even though I'm not being billed. I'm seeing how it plays out for a minute and it's sort of trippy.

~I think, I hope, I pray my yucky cold or whatever is getting better.

~Like every day lately, I feel like I'm more and more inhabiting the life of a writer. My novel is growing and living and breathing. And it makes me HAPPY.

The other blog.

2007-10-23T00:07:00.000-07:00

So I find myself cheating on this blog.

I'm going to try and make both relationships work for now, but if my one to two readers miss me here, I might be getting my kicks at http://inkcharmed.vox.com/ so come visit.

Update from the office.

2007-10-17T15:48:00.000-07:00

So last week I found a place to call my own, to claim as my own little personal novelist's office. It's a cute little coffeeshop laden with little lights and a pretty view out onto Main Street, and an inspiring entryway into an adjoining bookstore. Today Alias (my cute new little office) was THE place to be at 4:45 pm, when Robin Updyke hit 20,000 words. I feel special! :)

2007-10-15T22:16:00.001-07:00

I still love fall, I still love pumpkins. I would love to do some Halloween decorating, but I'm just not that on it yet. So I'll be content with my few autumnal candles and pumpkin scented oil for now.

I'm getting sick, so I've wasted most of the day, but managed to get in a crappy 500 words toward the end. I say crappy, because it came really easily, and it's ok, but there wasn't a bunch of content. My chapters are turning out to be pretty short, and I'm not getting too much action accomplished.

But I am getting my word count up. I'm going at a rate I've never been able to manage before, and I love it. I'm at 19,000 words right now, and tomorrow I should hit 20,000. And all I want is to get a 100,000 word draft finished. I know I can fix any flaws, redeem any ordinariness, and flesh out any flat dimensions. I'm a great editor. So I just need to raw material. And it's building. And that's so exciting! :)

Fall and pumpkins.

2007-09-18T18:48:00.001-07:00

I love fall, I love pumpkins. I love warm colors and sweaters and hot coffee on a crisp day. I love trench coats in every color (even though I have yet to invest in this passion). I love PBS murder mysteries set in England, the land of perpetual cool dreariness. A cup of tea sounds delicious. Tea at home, coffee out. Yay for fall arriving. I should take advantage of the conditions and write. I've been slacking this week. But loving the weather.

A little ray of sunshine.

2007-09-13T02:15:00.001-07:00

So I heard back from an editor. A real, live editor from Glamour, who signed off with her first name and made me feel all special. :) They can't use my essay now, but it was encouraging to have contact at all, with email in my special writers' box. :) And she did ask if I lived in the NY Metro area, so they could photograph me and use me in a story they're doing already. Which was sort of neat, even though I obviously can't do that. So a little victory in my hopelessly optomistic world of small but building truimphs. :) Go little writer me.

Books books books.

2007-09-07T13:10:00.000-07:00

The Feasting Season by Nancy Coons- The second half interested me, and I enjoyed the sensory pleasures of food that it described, and the setting of French countryside. But it started slow, and I don't think I'll buy the sequel that it is obviously set up for.

Hmm, I didn't have much of import to say on that, did I? :)

Yay.

2007-09-05T14:52:00.000-07:00

12,048 words
Anti-Diet Revolution sent to 3 more editors
en fuego

Finally it sounds like I have some substance. :)

2007-08-30T00:30:00.000-07:00

I'm sitting in candlelight, glowing beautiful for my dog Shiner and my computer screen. I love writing in candlelight- I don't know why. Another reason why I love this cold modern medium with a bright screen more than my old precious pen and paper. :)

I'm alternating between random writing excercises and my story. I'm now at 10,553 words, which is pretty much a big deal for me. It's like the girl who can't commit reaching her 10 year anniversary. It is very exciting, and if anyone feels the need to get me a gift to celebrate, I think it's very appropriate. :)

And for some odd reason, I have Julia Glass to thank for it. Reading "The Whole World Over" seemed to bless me with some seemingly simple realization about my reading and writing that has made my writing a lot easier and more satisfying. I can really see an end in sight for draft no. 1, and I think I can actually see myself having a finished manuscript to start shopping around within a year. I coudn't see specifics like that before.

So thank you, Julia Glass. It's just a really enjoyable book, as well. I give it 5 stars.

Ok, back to work... and maybe a Scrabble game or two.

Progress through my writing and J.K. Rowling's

2007-07-23T13:46:00.000-07:00

So progress is slow but there. I've been sending my article out, then sending a follow up email, and giving each editor about a week or so before going on to the next. I fantasize that I end up in a sticky situatuion where multiple editors suddenly get back to me all wanting to buy my piece, because I didn't wait long enough for them to reply and it's just so darn good that everyone wants it. :) Alas, this is probably not going to be the situation.

So I keep sending it out, trying not to lose momentum or belief that I will break into freelance work with this article. I knew that starting at the top would probably pan out like this, so I'm going to keep going with it, knowing that it will pay off in time. Just like how I feel about my gradual progression into raw and organic foods. I might not see results now, but I know I will.

And in the meantime, I've been working on my fiction. I've been using Scrivener, which is a pretty useful writing tool that understands the excess of notes, etc. that goes along with fiction writing. Any writers out there should check it out.

I just finished Harry Potter 7, and have been scouring the internet for others' opinions of the book. I was torn- well, not really torn, just not completely satisfied, I guess. And complete satisfaction was going to be unlikely anyway. I was happy with all of the plot elements I suppose, and the backstory and all that. What disappointed me was the delivery of some of it, in the end. It seemed sloppy and rough-draft-esque, and could have been worked with to keep more with the tone of the books. It's much more satisfying to find out a HUGE HUGE mystery from the past in fragments, building and building into a whole picture. Or at least a long scene that does justice to the information it's imparting. Some of the revelations just felt dumped into the end. So I think that the book could have been better with a hundred or so more pages, if necessary, to handle those revelations. I wasn't a fan of the epilogue either... but that's my personal taste. Too focused on the parsels of children everyone had and their names, and no information about what careers they ended in or anything. But someone said that they liked it for that very reason, since Harry had always wanted the regular family life, and that was most important to him. So I can see how showing that would make sense.

But I liked a lot. I loved Kreacher. I loved their time in the Black house. I enjoyed reading it all, and couldn't put it down. I would have felt that way no matter what. I mean, it's Harry Potter. :) Why do I love it so much? There are better written YA fantasy novels out there, true. Is it just the sheer amount of time I've spent in that world? A world that has spanned seven novels, all long and detailed? I think I've loved the details of the world. And I love delving into mysteries with roots in the past. And I still do. I'll probably re-read Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows soon, even though it wasn't quite as smooth as the rest.

Life is sweet.

2007-06-19T23:54:00.000-07:00

After a 12 hour marathon of eyes to the screen, hands to the keyboard, I have officially (heart racing scary officially) submitted a piece of my writing to an editor. A real editor that exists and publishes writers like myself. She doesn't just exist in my dream world of how my writing life will play out. She could start it all! I am thrilled. And you know what, 99% chance I won't even hear back, or if I do, it'll be a rejection. Because I started with the big leagues. Why not see if I can get a dollar or two a word first? Then I'll keep trying, and eventually, at some level with some pay rate, I'll get it published. The Anti-Diet Revolution will tell an important story to women across the country.

And may I add, I am absolutely charmed and smitten by this laptop and wireless thing. Here I was, a girl who thought it would add convenience to her writing life, but still remain enamored of simple pen and paper. Let me tell you, I was wrong! My output has quadroupled. Fiction and non-fiction is simply flying from my brain to my fingertips into a file. And my favorite, I can do it in our dark living room, with a candle or two. One technology lets me escape another.

Life is sweet.

Approval is neither desired nor required! Oh, unless you're an editor and want to pay me for my writing. :)

2007-06-18T01:33:00.000-07:00

So I need to do a final smoothing, and then start sending my article by email to some editors. I've read that with essays, you don't really query, but submit the whole. And I sent some emails to friends for feedback, and got a bit, but I need to move on now. I gave that a week. So wish me luck.

My novel is coming along much faster too, with the laptop.

I have no reason to not build a writing life. It's coming. And it can come in my own time. I read something today I liked- "Approval is neither desired nor required!" I need to stop seeking approval, feeling like I need to justify what I want to do with my life, my progress toward my degree, my weight, etc. I am in control, and I am fine.

Back, with guess what, a new direction!! :)

2007-06-08T12:38:00.000-07:00

Surprise suprise, right? :)

Anyway, after an explosion of writing with my non-fiction book idea, I've come to realize that in truth, I think it is best now suited for an article. And I think it can be a great article, and I think I'm shown myself that I can have a funny, powerful narrative voice for short pieces. (Who'd have thought from this earnest little blog? :)) So... I'm pursuing the freelance life. While of course working on my novel at the same time.

Exciting news for me. I got a laptop the other day, a cute little macbook, so that's bound to help my writing, right? I'll have to do it more just to play with it at least.

Melinda Doolittle and Memoirs of an Ex-Quick Fix Vixen!

2007-05-16T23:01:00.000-07:00

So. Melinda should have beaten Blake into the final two. And yes, she is better than Jordin, but I could see Jordin winning. But Melinda should have been in the final two at least! Damn you Blake fans. :)

Anyway, I just finished re-working the first three chapters of Memoirs and I think it's pretty ok. :) Hopefully, it's better than that. We will see.

5 things I'm thankful for today:

~I sprained my ankle today, and I think work will be understanding if I can't come in tomorrow. (Who wants a gimpy server??) Hopefully, tomorrow I will be thankful that I can work, though, because I'm broke.
~My manuscript is finally re-worked, and I'm ready to go on now, and maybe even submit to an agent this week. (Ok, I know I said that before, but I mean it this time. :))
~A pair of jeans were looser today, oh yeah...
~I got to rock in a porch swing in the shade of a hot summer day, writing, next to my boyfriend.
~I think I succeeded in getting a nice birthday present for my mom that she'll really enjoy.
~One more: I had a really enjoyable Mother's Day brunch with the family last weekend, and realized that I want to take advantage of the time we have left together and make it a more regular thing.

Rough idea of what jacket copy could read.

2007-05-07T12:44:00.000-07:00

This is a general summary of my book, what the jacket copy could look like. Obviously not smoothed out and actual copy, but... Is this compelling?

Taking My Time, Ditching The Diets: Memoirs of an Ex-Quick Fix Vixen

The story of how a chubby, messy perfectionist embraces subtle changes and kicks her all or nothing dieter mentality to the curb! She calls a truce with her less-than-perfect body, takes her time, awakens her senses, and starts a sweet love affair with her ordinary life. From obsessive dieter to rational and healthy. From messy slob to neat. From unaware to savoring each- ok, most- moments. A quick fix vixen no more, Robin takes us through her days, her life, with the realization that slow, sustained momentum toward your desires is more beneficial than any quick fix. And why not find beauty in every step of the journey?

Specifics.

2007-05-06T22:49:00.000-07:00

Quick update- non-fiction is going well, albeit in a slightly modified direction. New title- Taking My Time: Memoirs of an Ex-Quick Fix Vixen. To encompass not only changes in body image and eating, but more areas of my life. Then, I've re-worked Noel's story into a YA fantasy. I'm really excited about all this. I'm also desperate to go live in Paris for just a month and write, and could probably afford to this November, I'd decided, but it would take me off of my finish school finally track. I decided dealing with school first was a better idea. So I'm still in mourning for that. I thought I was over it, but I don't think I am. Oh, to have a disposable income and a life of writing and travel and leisure. It will come in time, but I'm working on my patience. :)

What are the best YA fantasies, besides Harry Potter? I want some feedback. :)

It has to start somewhere.

2007-04-25T15:51:00.000-07:00

So I've sent out the first three chapters to about 4 people that I know. Why is it so much easier for me to allow people to read my narrative than my fiction? Somehow it is. But it's still a bit scary. Especially when you think it's going well, and you're scared to hear someone tell you it's not. So we'll see. I need the feedback, because I want this to be a story that people will buy, read, and help.

Progress.

2007-04-24T09:49:00.000-07:00

So I have 2 + chapters written, but just typed the first one last night, and sent it to someone else to read. I only got maybe two paragraphs of fresh material, but typing out a chapter seemed like work too. :) This reader thought that my intro chapter would be great published right now as a magazine article... I just don't want to lose the rights to publish, because my heart is set on a book. I think within the week, I want to be ready to submit to an agent. I can't believe I'm at this point, finally.

5 things.

2007-04-22T23:21:00.000-07:00

5 things to be thankful for:

~I found an herbal supplement I'm excited about. Ok, I know that sounds special, but what can I say.
~Another day off tomorrow.
~Writing going well.
~Lovely rainy, gloomy days. (Yes, that's special too, I know.)
~Saying a quick hi to people I haven't talked to in a while.

Not to be disloyal, but.....

2007-04-17T23:59:00.000-07:00

I seem to be losing my affinity for domestic films and craving foreign films. So much more lyrical, poetic, simply more interesting! Pan's Labyrinth seduced me, and of course I've always loved Amelie, I enjoyed Volver. It probably doesn't hurt that I'm now in the middle of a love affair with Western Europe and France in particular-- a love that has yet to be consummated, so compels me to soak up whatever consolation I can through books and film. I rejoined Netflix just to have an avenue to reach all these films... Any I absolutely must see? I seem to really be drawn to a lush, rich atmosphere and an almost magical quality.

The more trivial.

2007-04-17T19:37:00.000-07:00

On to American Idol.

One thing I love about Jordin Sparks is well, she's cute and talented yes, but she's probably a well proportioned size 10 or 12. It inspires me to keep investing in the well-fitting clothes that bring out outer beauty, and keep me looking gorgeous and sexy even when I'm not thin.

I think I'll cast my virgin vote for her tonight, since I actually watched in real time, as opposed to the usual Tivo midnight show. I'd love for her to win. But I'm scared that the industry will mess with her body image. Hopefully, even though she's so young, her confidence and sense of self will trump the pressures and keep her grounded.

The thing is-- of course she should have the right to be slender. If I was up there, beautiful but a size 12, I would feel confident (hopefully), but would still embrace being a more slender size. Because even if I'm happy and accepting of my body today, I would always ideally prefer being smaller, a 6, or ideally ideally a 4. So how can I expect Jordin, or Jennifer Hudson, or any of these plus size beautiful role models to feel otherwise? But I love having them out there. I just hope that they never feel like they need to lose weight.

Back to me, I think I'm ready to add another gradual change in my eating habits. Still let myself eat whatever I want, but stock up on a lot more fruits/vegetables/whole grains, so I have more building blocks to create healthy meals. (To anyone who does not know my body goals, food relationship, this probably sounds obvious and strange, but trust me, this step couldn't be incorporated before- it was too soon.) Maybe a good goal- to be eating 1/3 or 1/2 raw (or produce centered, at least) in 2 years. (Again, probably sounds funny, but it's a perfect goal for me. :))

Tonight... back to writing. The fiction or Memoirs of a 24-Year Old Dieter.... I really need a working title for my story- it sounds like the runt of the family who's bound to start resenting the golden child. It's just not as focused yet. But I'm still excited about it. Maybe tonight I should give it some attention.

And by the way, for any avid fans of Jacqueline Carey's Kushiel series, I am loving Sebastian by Anne Bishop in a similar way. I'm not very far in, but I don't think it will disappoint me. Check it out.

Virginia Tech

2007-04-17T19:22:00.000-07:00

I send a short burst of prayer out to the families and students affected by the Virginia Tech shootings. I just heard about this today.

To be thankful for--
I haven't lost anyone in my life through a tragedy.
The only thing really bothering me in my life is my body. That is a blessed life.

Pretty colors, that's my style. :)

2007-04-17T14:48:00.000-07:00

The pinkish one... still working on it, even though I'm scared of messing up what I already like about it. I want it to have an effect of a mother and daughter leaning in toward each other. The flower- so fun, so easy to do. This could be addicting. :) One problem... how the hell do people let these things dry for months without stuff getting stuck in the paint??? Obviously artists without studios must not own dogs.